“O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me Thy glory, I pray Thee, so that I may know Thee indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, ‘Rise up my love, my fair one, and come away.’ Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long.”
I keep rereading this prayer, for its like a mirror has been held up to my heart and molded it into words I have searched for for so long. To know that He loves me in full right now, though I have so far to go in loving Him in full, is something I’m still trying to wrap my head around. I will spend my life trying to wrap my head around His heart for me, trying to comprehend how the Worthy could possibly think good thoughts, many as the sands by the sea, towards me. My mind is and continues to be blown.